Excursion II

“letsjustbefriends”
thewordsofdreadappear
arefocused
concieved
and

delivered.
(ouch)
butthisisdifferentsomehow
idontknowitjustseemsatypical
forthissortofthingthewayshesaidit
wasnotsarcastichurtingorangry
(didhereyemoisten?)
yesthisisdifferent
shesaysthat shelovesme
andimight believe
(teethgnashinghandwringinggreatsorrowofsoul)
heryet.

feelingsofsadnessyetgripme
(imusthavedoneSOMETHINGwrong?)
andsheconsolesmewithhergentleletters
“itsjustme”shetellsme
andshesaysnottoworry
< laugh >
worry

noishouldntworry
iloveherverymuch(cantromancenomore)
andishouldntworry
istruggleandiambeginningtosee
thatshelovesmeandwantstobemyfriend
andiloveherandwanttobeherfriend
istillwrestle.

ilookatherpictureonthewallandsaytomyself
“mywonderfulfriendinvermont”